相濡以沫，不如相忘於江湖。

23

you are a woman of many faces

and the one that suits you best

i fear

I did something completely WRONG today.

A meeting aiming to discuss graduates' issues was held this afternoon.  To my surprise, D. attended the meeting.  I have attended two classes he offered, and I knew he REALLY CARES about we graduate students.  However, when I intended to say something, when the microphone was passed to me, I did not speak in English.  Instead, I spoke in Chinese, a language that D. has no idea about.  Speaking in a language he does not understood, I, whether consciously or not, excluded him from our discussion.

I did the inappropriate behavior for several reasons.  But none of them are sufficient enough to ease my sense of guilty.

First, I had no courage to deviate from the norm.  The meeting had begun by professors speaking in Chinese, and I felt it embarrassed to respond these professors in English.  

Wait, the reason sounds weird even to myself....   Okay, let me face the evil spirit dominating my soul.  The first reason I just offered is merely an excuse.  I did not speak in English because I knew clearly that if I had spoken in English, people would have realized that I cared about him and wanted him to participate.  

這學期明明少了德文課，怎麼還是覺得一路被 weekly responses 跟 assigned readings 拖著走呢… 

我竟然說老師這學期比較溫和? 我一定是瘋了。

因為Book 9, 10 沒念，weekly response 又亂寫，早上起不來又遲到了二十分鐘… orz

結果老師今天正眼都不看我一眼耶 Q_Q

最近心裡發生了很多事呀…。

上星期去幫系上的TA研習會當打雜工，閒下來的時候，系上某位老師來跟我閒聊。

問我打哪來的? 怎麼不當TA? 這學期修了哪些課等等。

這星期的莎士比亞課，我不小心提到 Desdemona 是 Othello 的 mirror 的怪想法。

其實我的想法很淺，老師有點不高興，叫我去找找資料，下星期再向大家報告。

我一開始是以為，老師大概以為我上課太散漫了，作業都寫得很沒水平，所以才出一個小功課給我要我去找點東西來念。

結果剛才一查，發現mirror其實是Othello中的大主題耶! 幾份很有重量(?)的論文都有談到這個議題。

忽然很感謝老師叫我來查。

1. 補到宿舍了 喔耶

    (10/14)  http://unat.pixnet.net/album/set/15514636 

    室友是一位城鄉所的馬來西亞姑娘，非常熱情nice喔 :)

2. 去登記宿舍時巧遇另一枚高中同學，也在念文學院碩一

3. 本來還因為一直讀不完書寫不完作業而覺得好無力呀，重新check老師的Reading Schedule後卻發現這週的份已經差幾頁幾念完了耶!  耶耶耶!!

          一              二             三              四                五           
1                     系辦工讀
2      莎劇         系辦工讀
3      莎劇         系辦工讀   西洋哲學*
4      莎劇                        西洋哲學*